Breakdown

So I’ve had two “breakdowns” this past week that I’d like to share with you…

 

1) While driving home from work one night after the aquatic center… my vehicle decided it was time to give me an “opportunity” to learn… if you know what I mean 🙂  Anyway, my tire blew out last week. 

     Now, my new place is not close to friends.  While I wasn’t all the way home- I was still quite out of the way for people.  Not knowing what to do I started thinking about what my dad would tell me.  I didn’t want to wake him, it was 9:30pm.  So, I called my friend, after talking to him for a little while about my situation- we were not sure what I should do so he just said “I’m coming, you may need a ride.” It was late- I was pulled over on a fairly busy highway and my car was not on level ground so it would be a night mare to jack up!  Anyway… ended up calling my other friend’s dad and he advised that we take care of it the next day.    This was the first break down.

 

2)  The second breakdown was the next evening- this was not my car breaking down- actually at that point I still did not have my car back. Which leads me to what this “breakdown” could be.  If anyone knows me-  they know me as a very happy go-lucky people person- and I am.  I was totally fine with having a flat tire, I could handle it… right?  We take it off put a new one on and “prest-o!!” Well… no! 🙁  The guys worked on my vehicle in the afternoon through to the evening and could not get my tire off because of all the dirt and grime from NY.  It was this whole ordeal and during it all I was not with my vehicle and right after working at AIM I had to get a ride from a couple from work to bring me to the aquatic center.  Let’s just say… I was late for my second job because I was stuck on the phone with roadside assistance… letting them know that I needed help, I wasn’t with my car, my friends were going to have my cell with the car (because my roadside assistance was through the phone, it had to be with the car).  It was ridiculous!     

     Thankfully my private lesson was ok with my being late.   I thought I was composed- actually I think I did a pretty good job of keeping my professional face.  BUT, right after work my friend and I had planned to go to the Brown’s Bridge Satelite Church (I like to call it Star trek church) where there was a worship, communion and prayer night.  Along the way I just couldn’t hold back my tears.  It’s rare that I cry… I don’t know why… I’m not against it, I just don’t, but this particular time  I couldn’t hold it back.  I was trying to talk myself out of it but couldn’t.  I thought about how my friends helped me, how my co-workers drove me around, how my tire was finally fixed- I had no reason to cry.  But, either way… my friend stopped the music that was playing and said “Christy, it’s ok to cry!”  Ladies you know what happens next…  floods… oh man! I cry maybe 3-4 times a year- I’ll tear during a movie but crying because of being emotional is not my thing.  I just became overwhelmed by everything- if it wasn’t for that second job I wouldn’t have been stressed! BUT, if it wasn’t for that second job or for this whole ordeal I wouldn’t have been able to see how awesome the body of Christ is.  I truly am blessed. 

Which brings me for my “inspiration” for the title of this blog: 

 

When I was in highscool I really enjoyed listening to the band: Relient K.   When I think about this situation it reminded me of these lyrics:

 

Breakdown
 
Oh, what a lousy excuse for a car
One mile to go, but i can’t push it that far
I think I’ve had enough
I think I’m giving up

Saved all my money to buy a new guitar
Then i got ripped off by the guy who fixed my car
I think i’ve had enough
I think i’m giving up

Once again life’s thrown me a curve, and it blew up right in my face
Once again life’s rattled my nerves
don’t you see what I’m stuck in the place?
 

All because, you’re giving me a … Breakdown
Stuck on the side of the road
Emotional over-load
He’ll seek and destroy everything that I enjoy
but, I won’t be the one he takes down
No, I won’t breakdown